Frustrated by God
Psalm 33:1010 The Lord brings the counsel of the nations to nothing;
he frustrates the plans of the peoples.
In this verse, God is dealing with “Godless nations who seek their own will and not God’s,” according to my Reformation Study Bible. The second part of this verse - “he frustrates the plans of the peoples” - tends to hit close to home with me a lot. Mostly because it’s difficult for me to rest in God’s will from time to time.
As I’ve told many people before, I am nowhere close to where I thought I’d be at this point in my life. Five years ago, I would’ve told you that I hoped to be married, possibly with a kid, a nice job making $60,000-80,000 per year, putting my very expensive college education to use. I’d be playing in a popular band that played regularly to adoring crowds, toured on occasion, and had record label attention. I’d have a nice house with a personal recording studio, and I’d drive a nice SUV with no cares of the poor gas mileage.
Instead, I’ve become a Christian and attend a great church. I’ve fallen in love with God’s Word, even if I fail to live up to it. I’ve yet to find “the one” (much to the chagrin of my mother), and that’s perhaps a topic for a different blog post. I have a decent job that I enjoy, but I don’t make a killing, and I’m not necessarily putting my degree to use. I play in a band that I enjoy dearly, and we play a couple times per month at the most, occasionally travel away from central Kentucky, and people seem to like us. I don’t own a home, but I’m looking. I drive a Honda CRV that is in good shape, but isn’t anything fancy.
As you can see, God has obviously had different plans for my life than I expected. So much of my time can tend to be spent seeking my own will and not God’s. I thank Him for leading me to this verse. Maybe I can learn to rest in His will more often and live a life of peace instead of frustration.